still waiting...

still waiting for the decision on whether my husband will be gone for 18 months. his name has made it past the 2nd round of cuts. there's only 3 rounds so i'm kind of starting to get worried.

rob's already worried. he's been researching everything he can find about conditions over there in iraq and filling me in on it all. in fact, he's been talking about it too much b/c i'm getting tired of the worrying. i'd rather try & push it out of my mind and have a nice holiday, since it might be the last one we'll have as a family for a bit. (and yes, i'm in DENIAL.)

i'm trying to figure out wth i would do with the kids everyday. i mean, reese & cade look forward to his arrival home from work and right after he gets home, we eat dinner. then he and the kids pal around a bit and then it's bathtime. it's just nice to shift the kids' focus to someone else...and say, 'take the kids downstairs with you. i need some quiet.'

however, we did get a positive feeling today. rob was talking with his boss, who had spoken with rob's detailer (the guy who decides what job rob will be assigned to next), and the detailer had no clue that his name had been put in for this job. he (the detailer) said he'd be in contact with rob very soon and then when he got home, rob had an email waiting for him from the detailer. however, he was gone for the day so it will have to wait til tomorrow.

like i said in a previous post, i know that if my husband doesn't go, then someone else's husband will have to go. and maybe that other family is a lot worse off than we are, so it's not fair for me to wish for someone else to do it. i guess i'm just hoping i don't have to do it...it's not only hard doing the job over there, but the waiting at home is tough. waiting for any news at all about your husband's whereabouts, his safety, waiting to hear the worst. and if he was selected for this job, then i would not have a lot of support from the local naval base. rob wouldn't be 'with' a unit or a boat, so i would not have any support from a wive's group or an ombudsman.

anyway, on that happy note, i'm going to bed. i hear the freezing rain/sleet hitting the windows...hope reese has school tomorrow!