we're taking rob to the airport this morning. he is headed back to holland (the netherlands? with all the olympic coverage, i have no clue really what to call this little country...). he is due to return july6th, the day before our 5th anniversary.
and i have to say, and i hope it's just my pregnant hormones talking here, i'm kind of glad he's going. i can put away the coffee maker (ugh, i hate coffee), stop buying egg whites (who the hell just eats egg whites? i need a little yolk in my egg), and know that when i go to bed at night there will be no more dirty dishes on the table or on the sink waiting to greet me in the am.
on the other hand there will be no one to prewarm the bed for me (the dog must follow me EVERYWHERE), no one to guilt into checking out creepy noises for me (although i hope the dog would be brave enough to at least bark threateningly), and no one to grab subway on the way home from work. sigh. how will i survive??? funny how the dog can replace a man so easily though.
2.16.2006
2.12.2006
snow snow and a bit more snow
even though it's a snowy day and i'm worried about losing power because of the wind gusts, i am in heaven. i'm munching on rold gold cheddar pretzels. they are just too freakin' good. i thought i was buying honey mustard ones but these are much better! too bad reese loves them too! she keeps snitching from my dish.
i have a friend, marlayna, who lives in southern california. she rarely gets to see snow and she's always tickled to see snow pics...let's see if i can indulge her today.
this is the view out our sidedoor. i shoveled the steps and made an area where the dog can do his business. heaven forbid he get his feet too snowy. although it's so windy today that he came back in as a white dog last time.
i have a friend, marlayna, who lives in southern california. she rarely gets to see snow and she's always tickled to see snow pics...let's see if i can indulge her today.
this is the view out our sidedoor. i shoveled the steps and made an area where the dog can do his business. heaven forbid he get his feet too snowy. although it's so windy today that he came back in as a white dog last time.
more snow in the air.
and christ, what a frustrating process it is to put pictures in this damn thing. with the kids refusing to budge more than 2" away from me and the dog farting, it's a miracle they're up. i had 2 more i wanted to post but they're just not going to cooperate. arg. i need more space to see what i'm doing than just a narrow little frame to work in.
oh well. you get the idea, it's pretty damn snowy outside! rob is wondering if the base will be closed tomorrow (it's not supposed to stop snowing until close to dark tonight, not sure about winds). i don't know if i can handle him at home for 3 days in a row. if we're all going to be housebound together than i need to make a hideout room.
2.10.2006
reese's day at school
reese went to school today and i have mixed feelings about her day.
reese had a potty accident at school. i think i'm more upset about it than she is and if i'd quit bugging her for details, she' probably forget it ever happened. her 'version' of it is that she just didn't make it to the bathroom in time. she does do that, put off going to the bathroom until the last possible minute and then if she has problems with the buttons/zippers on her pants, it becomes an emergency situation. i imagine that that is what happened today. it's her only potty accident at school and so that's 5 months accident free. we've rarely had accidents at home (in fact she'll be pottytrained for 1 year next month!). i guess the part i'm bummed about was that she was *maybe* embarrassed at school.
and i know i'm making too much of it. the more attention i focus on it then she'll think it was a horrible event. but at least she's not in diapers. i know of 2 kids in her class that are still in diapers! (pullups, whatever...)
anyway, they baked valentine's cookies at school and they put reese's loosely-tied-in-a-plastic-bag potty clothes in the same part of her backpack with the napkin-wrapped cookie. ugh. and of course that's the first thing reese started talking about when she got home. no way was i going to let her eat that thing. so i had to do some fast talking and give her some hot cocoa and teddy grahams. and the first thing she told rob when he walked in the door tonight: 'mommy threw away my cookie' (add fake tears here).
the reason reese goes to school is for speech help. it's a playgroup format, based on a preschool format (they do circle time, etc) with a little bit of work on speech sounds. i see a huge improvement in her, but i'm not sure how much of this is her school and how much is just reese growing up. technically she is involved in special ed, she has an IEP.
now in her back pack i found a handout about the local title 1 preschool. reese would be the correct age to go this coming school year (2006-07) and it's 5 days a week, morning or afternoon. i assume that since it's through the school district there is no cost. it wasn't mentioned on the handout. what i do want to know is the kind of kids that will be attending. if these kids are severely handicapped, i'm not sure if it would be appropriate for reese. (do i sound like a snob? probably. :/)
i guess i'm just worried about reese being further behind than i'm aware of and this is the school district's way of telling me to get her more help. i'm paranoid, i guess. i need to talk to her teachers about if there will be formal testing done when she's is done with the group she's in now. and if her entrance to the title 1 preschool is approved/denied based on those tests.
my feelings aren't really a direct result of anything the school did today. hell, for all i know it could be hormonally based.
speaking of, we've been thinking of names. already, i have a feeling it's a boy. one of our names when i was pg with cade was sean robert. i still really like that name. rob is kind of so-so on it. the reason i think it's a boy is b/c no girl names appeal to me at all. it was that way with cade, i just couldn't settle on a girl name. although i will be looking. i already have our baby name book off the bookcase. :)
reese had a potty accident at school. i think i'm more upset about it than she is and if i'd quit bugging her for details, she' probably forget it ever happened. her 'version' of it is that she just didn't make it to the bathroom in time. she does do that, put off going to the bathroom until the last possible minute and then if she has problems with the buttons/zippers on her pants, it becomes an emergency situation. i imagine that that is what happened today. it's her only potty accident at school and so that's 5 months accident free. we've rarely had accidents at home (in fact she'll be pottytrained for 1 year next month!). i guess the part i'm bummed about was that she was *maybe* embarrassed at school.
and i know i'm making too much of it. the more attention i focus on it then she'll think it was a horrible event. but at least she's not in diapers. i know of 2 kids in her class that are still in diapers! (pullups, whatever...)
anyway, they baked valentine's cookies at school and they put reese's loosely-tied-in-a-plastic-bag potty clothes in the same part of her backpack with the napkin-wrapped cookie. ugh. and of course that's the first thing reese started talking about when she got home. no way was i going to let her eat that thing. so i had to do some fast talking and give her some hot cocoa and teddy grahams. and the first thing she told rob when he walked in the door tonight: 'mommy threw away my cookie' (add fake tears here).
the reason reese goes to school is for speech help. it's a playgroup format, based on a preschool format (they do circle time, etc) with a little bit of work on speech sounds. i see a huge improvement in her, but i'm not sure how much of this is her school and how much is just reese growing up. technically she is involved in special ed, she has an IEP.
now in her back pack i found a handout about the local title 1 preschool. reese would be the correct age to go this coming school year (2006-07) and it's 5 days a week, morning or afternoon. i assume that since it's through the school district there is no cost. it wasn't mentioned on the handout. what i do want to know is the kind of kids that will be attending. if these kids are severely handicapped, i'm not sure if it would be appropriate for reese. (do i sound like a snob? probably. :/)
i guess i'm just worried about reese being further behind than i'm aware of and this is the school district's way of telling me to get her more help. i'm paranoid, i guess. i need to talk to her teachers about if there will be formal testing done when she's is done with the group she's in now. and if her entrance to the title 1 preschool is approved/denied based on those tests.
my feelings aren't really a direct result of anything the school did today. hell, for all i know it could be hormonally based.
speaking of, we've been thinking of names. already, i have a feeling it's a boy. one of our names when i was pg with cade was sean robert. i still really like that name. rob is kind of so-so on it. the reason i think it's a boy is b/c no girl names appeal to me at all. it was that way with cade, i just couldn't settle on a girl name. although i will be looking. i already have our baby name book off the bookcase. :)
2.09.2006
what i do on friday nights...
greetings :)
tracy, you're awesome. i love that you post comments and let me know that *someone* is peeking at my ramblings. since i'm sure rob will be a dud on valentine's day, will you be my valentine??? and i want you to know that the next time i'm at target i'm going to splurge and try some of the olay regenerist that you raved about. who knows, maybe after i use it i'll get mistaken for....hm....um anyone but me would be fine.
anyway, on to the rambling...
my newest friday night addiction is thanks to the travel channel. they run this show from great britian called 'most haunted.' this team of folks goes into some of the most reportedly haunted places in england. the part that i find most amazing is that some of these structures are intact although they were built in the 1200s. that just blows my mind, being an american and all. over here if anything is over 200 years old it should be locked up behind glass and velvet ropes. i'm not sure how things survive for a thousand years over there. they don't have tornados, earthquakes, huge brush fires, hurricanes, or really any natural disasters. i think their main enemy is mold b/c it's so damp over there. but just to see these that these places are still inhabited is just amazing to me.
anyway, the team consists of a blonde (sometimes redheaded) female host, a medium (derek, he's the shit, let me tell you!), and phil, the parapsychologist that does all the 'baseline readings.' (i love that phrase, 'baseline readings.' say it and you sound knowledgeable about anything.) what i love is that derek can tell so many things about the previous residents of a place and he's not told anything about the location; according to the show, he's not even told WHERE they're going. not sure if they blindfold him and throw him in the trunk or what. but he can tell you with about 80% accuracy about the history of a location.
then it's fun just watching the blonde host get scared out of her wits. they give her a camera and send her somewhere in the house that it's pitch black and let her mind work overtime. i admit, i would be the same exact way. no way could they get me to go in some of these places with the lights off.
i think the creepiest place they went was an underground prison. i was just flabbergasted that such a place had even existed. it wasn't a prison exactly, more like a holding place before prisoners were sent off to be tried or punished i think. after the place was no longer used for that purpose, the town built a street over it and put up some swanky buildings and now it looks totally respectable. amazing how they just build stuff on top of stuff over there. i wish they had shown more from that location, they had some 'evil' spirits chasing the team around and derek would not let the ladies be by themselves. but it is an hour show, the spooks can only have so much time before the commercials gotta pay the bills. it's a cool show for any one who likes to get a bit scared, and i'm afraid i'm looking forward to it a bit too much. if for some reason it wasn't on, i would be disappointed. then i'd have to actually do something productive instead. (like watch 'dallas' reruns...but that's a future post.)
so that is what my tivo is recording on friday nights. that and 'ghost whisperer.' this is one of the few dramas that i enjoy on tv anymore. (oh, and i watched some of 'grey's anatomy' last sunday, i might just have to add that to my tivo to do list!)
cade was up at 6ish this morning, whining/crying in his crib. he's put himself back to sleep before so i just dozed through it. then reese came in at 6:45 b/c he had woken her up and i realize he's still crying and i was SLEEPING THROUGH IT. what kind of a mommy am i? eek. but the crying obviously didn't get louder, and it was more whine than cry. and he was happy to see me when i went into his room, so i guess he's not holding a grudge. but the good news is a guaranteed nap time today. yay! i really hope reese cooperates with operation shuteye.
what to do today...sleep. survive. gestate baby. make sure the dog doesn't yak on the carpet (the linoleum is ok though, it's easier to clean). entertain the kids.
i guess that's it. better get started ;)
tracy, you're awesome. i love that you post comments and let me know that *someone* is peeking at my ramblings. since i'm sure rob will be a dud on valentine's day, will you be my valentine??? and i want you to know that the next time i'm at target i'm going to splurge and try some of the olay regenerist that you raved about. who knows, maybe after i use it i'll get mistaken for....hm....um anyone but me would be fine.
anyway, on to the rambling...
my newest friday night addiction is thanks to the travel channel. they run this show from great britian called 'most haunted.' this team of folks goes into some of the most reportedly haunted places in england. the part that i find most amazing is that some of these structures are intact although they were built in the 1200s. that just blows my mind, being an american and all. over here if anything is over 200 years old it should be locked up behind glass and velvet ropes. i'm not sure how things survive for a thousand years over there. they don't have tornados, earthquakes, huge brush fires, hurricanes, or really any natural disasters. i think their main enemy is mold b/c it's so damp over there. but just to see these that these places are still inhabited is just amazing to me.
anyway, the team consists of a blonde (sometimes redheaded) female host, a medium (derek, he's the shit, let me tell you!), and phil, the parapsychologist that does all the 'baseline readings.' (i love that phrase, 'baseline readings.' say it and you sound knowledgeable about anything.) what i love is that derek can tell so many things about the previous residents of a place and he's not told anything about the location; according to the show, he's not even told WHERE they're going. not sure if they blindfold him and throw him in the trunk or what. but he can tell you with about 80% accuracy about the history of a location.
then it's fun just watching the blonde host get scared out of her wits. they give her a camera and send her somewhere in the house that it's pitch black and let her mind work overtime. i admit, i would be the same exact way. no way could they get me to go in some of these places with the lights off.
i think the creepiest place they went was an underground prison. i was just flabbergasted that such a place had even existed. it wasn't a prison exactly, more like a holding place before prisoners were sent off to be tried or punished i think. after the place was no longer used for that purpose, the town built a street over it and put up some swanky buildings and now it looks totally respectable. amazing how they just build stuff on top of stuff over there. i wish they had shown more from that location, they had some 'evil' spirits chasing the team around and derek would not let the ladies be by themselves. but it is an hour show, the spooks can only have so much time before the commercials gotta pay the bills. it's a cool show for any one who likes to get a bit scared, and i'm afraid i'm looking forward to it a bit too much. if for some reason it wasn't on, i would be disappointed. then i'd have to actually do something productive instead. (like watch 'dallas' reruns...but that's a future post.)
so that is what my tivo is recording on friday nights. that and 'ghost whisperer.' this is one of the few dramas that i enjoy on tv anymore. (oh, and i watched some of 'grey's anatomy' last sunday, i might just have to add that to my tivo to do list!)
cade was up at 6ish this morning, whining/crying in his crib. he's put himself back to sleep before so i just dozed through it. then reese came in at 6:45 b/c he had woken her up and i realize he's still crying and i was SLEEPING THROUGH IT. what kind of a mommy am i? eek. but the crying obviously didn't get louder, and it was more whine than cry. and he was happy to see me when i went into his room, so i guess he's not holding a grudge. but the good news is a guaranteed nap time today. yay! i really hope reese cooperates with operation shuteye.
what to do today...sleep. survive. gestate baby. make sure the dog doesn't yak on the carpet (the linoleum is ok though, it's easier to clean). entertain the kids.
i guess that's it. better get started ;)
2.08.2006
it's hump day!
geez, it's been a while. in case there is anyone out there checking in, sorry!
my last post in here was just before rob returned from holland. how ironic that he'll be leaving in a week or so to go back there for 4 months. please pray for my sanity and health while he's gone. my mind has started worrying about 'what happens if i fall in the shower?', 'what if i fall down the stairs and break my neck?', 'what if i just don't wake up?' and in all these scenarios i worry about when my children would be found, starving and penned. i image reese would be desperately trying to figure out the tivo remote, refusing to use the toilet (since i'm not there to stand in the doorway). she might have tried to get cade out of the crib but i think he'd still be stuck in there for who knows how long. i close the gate at the top of the stairs every night so reese can't wander downstairs as i snooze, but i realize more and more that maybe this is a fire hazard...or could be dangerous in an emergency. can you tell i have way too much time to ponder such things?!?!
maybe my mind wanders this way b/c this pregnancy is progressing well....pregnant women are quite good at visualizing the worst of any situation. i rented a doppler and found the heartbeat and that was a huge relief. if i had any smarts i'd try and link a sound file. wonder if i have that much time to devote to something that wouldn't work anyway. when i let rob listen, he was amazed. i keep forgetting that he never really got to all the short doc appts when i was pregnant with reese or cade, so listening to the heartbeat is amazing technology for him. i'm not showing that much, but my uterus seems to be pushing up all my belly fat so i'm just 2x as chubby. i did buy some maternity tshirts at old navy and i seem to be looking pg in them already. keep in mind i'm only 11 weeks on thursday! i have a feeling that my butt is eating up all the extra room in the shirts. i guess i'll need a buttectomy asap. if only. why doesn't medical science work on the breakthroughs that really matter???
speaking of medical science, i still am not in the care of an ob/gyn. i still haven't even gone on base for the referral yet. since i've already ordered teh doppler, i'm on prenatal vitamins, and doing daily weigh-ins, i'm thinking i'm pretty qualified to have this baby myself. maybe i'll opt for homebirth and tell rob to get out, i can do this myself. heh heh. (and yes, he BETTER be home by the end of august...he's scheduled to be home july 6th-ish.) anyway, i need to review the list of ob/gyns that my insurance will accept. i don't want to use the docs that delievered reese...i ended up with an episiotomy and i hated waiting for 45 minutes for a 5 minute appt. with cade, we started off with a practice in new hampshire and i loved them. it was mostly female midwives & docs and they were so nice, making EYE CONTACT with me, wondering how i was really doing (emotionally too). then we moved to connecticut and the local practice was ok, but even though i went into labor on a friday (the day the midwife was rumored to be on duty), a doc still delivered me. ??? i don't think they really let her catch any babies, probably b/c of insurance. :/
it would be nice to go to someone local, just b/c of childcare issues (hey, why don't ob/gyns offer childcare during appts??? if a grocery store can do it, why not the doctor's office???). i barely remember the doc who delivered cade, and i know i couldn't spell his name. he was the only doctor that i hadn't gotten around to seeing in an appt and his name honestly looked like 'frankenstein' on the birth paperwork. however, i just had a tiny tear with cade and the birth went smoothly. the cocky part of me thinks that's b/c i'm just a healthy person with wide hips...the docs really don't do much except clamp the cord and make sure the baby doesn't hit the floor.
anyway, enough about baby talk.
we're headed for groceries today. you can bet that miniature peanut butter cups are going to be in my cart. i might just hide them til rob leaves next week.
my last post in here was just before rob returned from holland. how ironic that he'll be leaving in a week or so to go back there for 4 months. please pray for my sanity and health while he's gone. my mind has started worrying about 'what happens if i fall in the shower?', 'what if i fall down the stairs and break my neck?', 'what if i just don't wake up?' and in all these scenarios i worry about when my children would be found, starving and penned. i image reese would be desperately trying to figure out the tivo remote, refusing to use the toilet (since i'm not there to stand in the doorway). she might have tried to get cade out of the crib but i think he'd still be stuck in there for who knows how long. i close the gate at the top of the stairs every night so reese can't wander downstairs as i snooze, but i realize more and more that maybe this is a fire hazard...or could be dangerous in an emergency. can you tell i have way too much time to ponder such things?!?!
maybe my mind wanders this way b/c this pregnancy is progressing well....pregnant women are quite good at visualizing the worst of any situation. i rented a doppler and found the heartbeat and that was a huge relief. if i had any smarts i'd try and link a sound file. wonder if i have that much time to devote to something that wouldn't work anyway. when i let rob listen, he was amazed. i keep forgetting that he never really got to all the short doc appts when i was pregnant with reese or cade, so listening to the heartbeat is amazing technology for him. i'm not showing that much, but my uterus seems to be pushing up all my belly fat so i'm just 2x as chubby. i did buy some maternity tshirts at old navy and i seem to be looking pg in them already. keep in mind i'm only 11 weeks on thursday! i have a feeling that my butt is eating up all the extra room in the shirts. i guess i'll need a buttectomy asap. if only. why doesn't medical science work on the breakthroughs that really matter???
speaking of medical science, i still am not in the care of an ob/gyn. i still haven't even gone on base for the referral yet. since i've already ordered teh doppler, i'm on prenatal vitamins, and doing daily weigh-ins, i'm thinking i'm pretty qualified to have this baby myself. maybe i'll opt for homebirth and tell rob to get out, i can do this myself. heh heh. (and yes, he BETTER be home by the end of august...he's scheduled to be home july 6th-ish.) anyway, i need to review the list of ob/gyns that my insurance will accept. i don't want to use the docs that delievered reese...i ended up with an episiotomy and i hated waiting for 45 minutes for a 5 minute appt. with cade, we started off with a practice in new hampshire and i loved them. it was mostly female midwives & docs and they were so nice, making EYE CONTACT with me, wondering how i was really doing (emotionally too). then we moved to connecticut and the local practice was ok, but even though i went into labor on a friday (the day the midwife was rumored to be on duty), a doc still delivered me. ??? i don't think they really let her catch any babies, probably b/c of insurance. :/
it would be nice to go to someone local, just b/c of childcare issues (hey, why don't ob/gyns offer childcare during appts??? if a grocery store can do it, why not the doctor's office???). i barely remember the doc who delivered cade, and i know i couldn't spell his name. he was the only doctor that i hadn't gotten around to seeing in an appt and his name honestly looked like 'frankenstein' on the birth paperwork. however, i just had a tiny tear with cade and the birth went smoothly. the cocky part of me thinks that's b/c i'm just a healthy person with wide hips...the docs really don't do much except clamp the cord and make sure the baby doesn't hit the floor.
anyway, enough about baby talk.
we're headed for groceries today. you can bet that miniature peanut butter cups are going to be in my cart. i might just hide them til rob leaves next week.
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